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Post by Casey on Dec 20, 2009 21:53:23 GMT -8
Kait just sighed softly and continued to caress him...just needing to touch him for a while...
you're not responsible for my life ian...sometimes people are jsut in the wrong place at the wrong time...it's not your fault...i know that you would do anything in your power to prevent anything from happening to me...but some things are just out of your power...and that's okay... i don't want you to blame yourself for that... i'd do anything to help you...i'll hunt down that bitch Emily or the padma and tear them into little bloody pieces or die trying if it would help you...but the damage has been done...and you have to get past it...or you'll never find happiness...and i want that more than anything...your happiness...
She leaned down to kiss your cheek softly... she'd lean down to put her arms under his and would lift him up...
Come on...you need to lay down....let me help you..please?
She'd try to half carry half drag him to the bed so he could lie down there..
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Post by Keiran on Dec 20, 2009 22:05:24 GMT -8
Hard for him to agree to anything at the moment he heard her but tiredness was snaking into every fibre of his being . Her offer to help and somehow he tried to help her get him back to his feet body protesting at having to move and small moans of pain escaping him this time . He'd lean against her more then he ever had just needing some support to get him anywhere near the bed and even then getting into or more onto would end up being more falling then sitting .
gotta say one thing , Layla really knows how to to kick like a donkey
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Post by Casey on Dec 21, 2009 7:04:22 GMT -8
Kait took his weight as he leaned on her...as a human she probably would have fallen over but there were perks to the lycan thing..like the added strength...she would sort of half carry him to the bed and watching him kind of fall into it...she'd pick up his legs for him and slip them under the covers..tucking him in..trying to make him as comfortable as she could before going to the bathroom to get a damp cloth...she came back out and would gently dab at his face with the cool cloth...hoping it might help with the swelling a bit...she adjusted the pillow behind his head and just sat there on the side of the bed...tending to him...she heard the comment about Layla kicking him and she frowned...he'd said he'd asked her to do it...but it still bothered her that the vampire had agreed to it...she looked down at his battered face and tried to understand...quietly asking...
Why Ian?
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Post by Keiran on Dec 21, 2009 16:37:59 GMT -8
No protest or word would come from him arguing her helping him , he kinda knew if left on his own he would of ended up grabbing the nearest blanket and staying on the damn floor . with eyes closed he only heard her moving around and the first touch of dampness against face and a soft whistle of breath came out between teeth .
Why? ...like why did she kick me why or the whole deal
He'd force himself to open eyes then looking upwards at her , kinda gathered what she meant though and didnt wait for her to answer ... his had been maybe more rhetorical
i think i just needed it , something ..... i just felt numb n the only way i know how to get past it is to feel the pain ........ sides part of me thinks i deserve every single bruise i got
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Post by Casey on Dec 21, 2009 17:34:34 GMT -8
she just gently dabbed the cloth against his face...letting him explain..she understood it in a way..but she just couldn't imagine what it must be like to be so numb even pain was a welcome feeling..it made her hurt for him...
Do you feel up to hunting? heal up that way? i could go with you...if you wanted... But i understand if you want to be a lone...just...Tieran said i wasn't supposed to let you go out alone...but layla said you could use the basement...
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Post by Keiran on Dec 21, 2009 17:44:14 GMT -8
Pfttttttt Tieran and his interfering ways , damn Raj needed a kick up the ass . He'd sink into the bed and reached for the hand pressing the cloth to his face and lightly curled fingers around her wrist holding her close .
couldnt move to shift even if i wanted too , havent felt so exhausted in a long while . Ya dont have to stay if you dont want too , i'm not going anywhere for a while here .
He couldnt physically make himself move , mentally he didnt want to face the world out there in any shape or form just yet . Needed to get himself back to himself if only faintly before trying to face the outside . So they didnt know anything but flicker of paranoia made him think people would be staring at him. He didnt want her to think he wanted her to go though
can stay if you want , kinda like the company right now ..... my own thoughts aint a great place to be
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Post by Casey on Dec 21, 2009 17:56:58 GMT -8
she watched him as he grabbed her wrist...staying her hand..she listened to him say if she wanted...she just looked down at him with those soft blue eyes...she cut the bullshit...
Ian....do YOU want me to stay with you?
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Post by Keiran on Dec 21, 2009 18:01:58 GMT -8
Cut straight to the point huh , kinda one of the things he loved about her .Mean they'd managed to hurt each other the last few days and he couldnt deny it cut like a knife straight thru him , it wouldnt mend over night they needed to work at it if it was gonna work at all .She wanted him to answer truthfully ,swipe of tongue over dry lips before he answered
yes , just didnt know if you would want too stay anywhere near me
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Post by Casey on Dec 21, 2009 18:31:03 GMT -8
She knew it would take a lot of time to heal..for both of them...it wasn't an overnight thing...but she would would jsut nod softly and stand...moving around to the other side of the bed and crawling in next to him...she laid down on her side next to him...her head sharing his pillow as she laid next to him
all you had to do was ask...
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Post by Keiran on Dec 21, 2009 18:37:37 GMT -8
As if anything would be that easy eh , just asking . he'd feel the bed dip lightly with her weight added too it and slowly turned his head to look at her laying there , least this way ..... it'd help him heal physically as well as mentally
this may sound slightly crazy but ya know ..if you want to ask anything bout the things i told you get them out of the way now?
He knew he'd unloaded a lot onto her and it'd spilled out of him like nobodys buisness the only person who actually knew the whole truth since that whole fucking mess happened , not even maire had found out what had been done to him .
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Post by Casey on Dec 21, 2009 19:03:07 GMT -8
she looked at him..laying close to him as they talked...she looked at him as he told her she could ask...she thought about that for a second...she wasn't sure she really wanted to know any more..or make him relive it again..it wasn't the deatils she wanted..so much as to know how it affected him...
Do you have any idea what happened to Emily after you left?
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Post by Keiran on Dec 21, 2009 19:08:41 GMT -8
maybe it was better to get it all over and done with , not bring it up again after it was well yeah maybe he wasnt thinking so clear but didnt matter . Slowly he'd ease onto his side thankfully not the side that got kicked
not till recently , tried to forget she even exsisted till he showed up . She's been with him the whole time helping him find people to play with . Chances it it means she's in the city with him right now . If you're wondering , i aint crazy enough to think about going after her not with him around
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Post by Casey on Dec 21, 2009 20:38:12 GMT -8
Kait hadn't been thinking about him going after her...but rather going after her herself...yeah yeah..she knew what he'd say if she said that aloud...he wouldnt want her anywhere near Emily or the padma...but Kait couldn't let it go...if he got some measure of peace knowing Emily and the Padma were gone forever..she'd die trying to give it to him...she didn't say anything about that for the moment she jsut looked at him
is there anything you want to ask me?
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Post by Keiran on Dec 21, 2009 20:42:10 GMT -8
Seeing Emilys dead broken body would give him more peace then anything else in the world , that she was gone for good and couldnt come back to haunt him anymore . When she asked him that god , too many questions to ask and some of them too scared to even think about voicing
you;ve done so much for me just ...... Kait , how can I help ease your pain, its there we both know it . Why do you hide it so much and wont let me in to help ?
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Post by Casey on Dec 21, 2009 21:02:30 GMT -8
she saw the look that fluttered over his face as if he didn't know where to start..and of course he started with a doozy of a question..what could he do? she didn't really know...how do you explain why you are the way you are?
My mother was killed in a hit and run car crash when i was a kid. I don't remember much about her, but I remember she had this way of making everything okay...Whenever i was scared or upset...just her voice would sooth me. She did the same for my father and brothers whenever they were angry or frustrated...just a smile and a kind word and she could make the anger go away...When she died...we were all a mess. She was the glue that held our family together...i remember my dad looking so lost...i'd never seen my dad cry before..but the slightest thing that reminded him of her...would just...make his face crumple in agony and sob. He loved her so much..her loss was killing him...i couldn't bring myself to add to his pain by telling him how much i missed her...how much i hurt...i knew even back then that it would only add to his burden and his guilt. So i stopped letting him see me cry, i hid all my feelings so he wouldn't worry about me...i took care of him and my brothers as much as any little kid could to help them feel better. I've been doing it ever since...listening to other people's problems..trying to help them with it...while suppressing my own...I can't help anyone if i'm overly emotional...
she looked over at him..hoping he understood..she wasn't sure she could explain it any better
when you're hurt or upset...i don't want to make it worse by adding my problems to the mix...i don't want to make you feel even more guilty because i'm hurting...you're in no condition to help me when you're upset...just like i'd be in no condition to help you if i was upset...does that make any sense?
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